i realli am….like now that i think of it i did realli like you and like i liked wat we had…i dunt know what happened i was being courteny the stupid girl :P but i hate how i cant talk to you…like i realli think that we should be friends…like its soo awk at times…i wanna go up to u, but than im afraid that ur gunna get pissed off and crap….
like the other day i sat down at the table and i tried to make eye contact…butt…that wasn;t sucessful…the only thing u said to me was…”shut up courtney” in a poo way..i dunt want it to be like that…i dunt want to have enemies who does? well like i think we need to make up i know ur mad at what i did and i am kinda too..it was stupid…but girls do what girls do…its life get over it…plz? can we be friends? can i talk to u again? i miss ur criticism…
today at choir we tried out for the solo in I got a key…and i was soo freakin nervous cause i didnt think there were gunnna be other girls doing it with me, but there were :P
it wasnt even mi turn and mi knees were shaking like an earthquke…lol…i couldnt stop them..it was quite depressing lol
well…and than wen i started singing….it was better i felt like i projected more..but than i ran out of breath..nice court…but itsk, pratice makes things better….but im glad i tried it..to get over mi fears…maddie def got it she rocked it :P
you know how usually when u have your period u say something like.. my boyfriend TOM is here.. or like.. my best friend TOM is here…
for those boys who do not know this: “T”ime “O”f “M”onth=TOM
but now i cant say that.. because i have a friend named TOM now :D awww shoot… why tom…
remeber wen i was confused at tutorial wen u said that to sophz? haha i was like wait why would tom matter haha lol
i realli thought he did change but it turns out he is the still lame ass jerk that i knew from the begining of the year. he had a temporary like black out from us and it seemed like he came back with a different attitude, i was beliving it for a split second…i realli thought that it got to him, but i guess ppl dunt realli change…i realli wish he did…but…sometimes i think he does those things to me in front of other ppl to seem like hes cool and like he likes having power over me…wich i shouldnt give him…i shouldnt supply his glory/feel goodness..but its hard for me to not react to what he does to me…i cant jst stand there and do notin thats not me.ijst want to know why does he do this?
well there isnt a real answer…and who knows…maybe he jst enjoys teasing me…well he is a guy…all guys are jerks sorry to sayi wish i will find out…cause im tired of it…and i kinda want to give up…well i think i already did give up
ukno i think the nicest thing he ever did was give me a package of cinnnamon twists…
i dunt care if he reads this, but i dunt realli care if he changes or anything…i jst want him to stop being mean…like he said he did…but NEVER trust a guy’s word…well there are exceptions like the nicest boys out there
one more thing i realli found out that he couldnt change was when we were on the trip at SO CAL…it was very selfish and poo…
well thats all
i guess sometimes people really can’t change, there are so many times wen i wish i could change miself, but i always go back to the same conclusion, I CANT…u r who u r
it mite take a long time change urself cause ur soo used to what u do, u jst cant. But ther are some ppl who r very determined ppl and know what they want in life…psht prb wen ur older
well u cant realli change for anyone…only for urself…
for those of you who thought they were slim straight and we forgot to check. they were actually SKINNY JEANS. I’m also amazed.
THEY WERE OMG DONT BE GAY….LOL EWWW I HATE GUYS WIT SKINNY JEANS….ONLY IF THEY CAN PULL IT OFF….ERMMM…I DUNO ABOUT U I NEED TO SEE THEM IN PERSON….
im home from socal trip :)))
it was so very exciting.. i met cool ppo like josh and chris and joe and christy and tom and reli got to know them a lot better! :( but its too bad that they’re graduating this year.. :( but hey! it was so much fun :) i wish i could go again
and how im starting to chant nima when im bored LOL THE POWERS OF NIMA!! lol.. bryant culture and the nima religion !
AHAH I SAW NIMA’S ANCESTORS IN THE HAUNTED MANSION LOOOL
HAHAHAHA…lol i luved this trips at times….esp busss
i agree noooo all the seniors are gunnnna leave nooooo…sooo sad..welll i luv them all and will never never ever forget them :p
i kinda like coming back to school since i was kinda bored at home :p
and i want to go back to school to raise all mi grraades up b4 finals and so i can have awesome grades :P Today at school i was pretty happy cause like i got too see all mi friends and like i like learning sometimes…ino im werid. And i got to see a certain somebody….hehehe…but than pd6 got me depressed cuz of the video we watched in the hisotry about genocide :(
owells…the rest of the day was okay…hopefully this week will be joyfull and productive…i want to raise mi chem grade to a B by the time grading pd end or semster (crosss ur fingers for me guys :P)
oh pd.3 was poo since somebody kept being a jerk/ass/poohead…u guys kno who this jerk is…dunt need to repeat wat he does…and there is this thingy that i dunt quite know about which i am suppose to be in the middle?? well here comes the dramama yayayayay
okey bai bai
why am i so bored?
no one is talking to me…
im a loner
where is kels/love?
this doesnt feel like spring breaak
why is tom so good at taking pictures?
i want every single one of his photos to be mi pf pic :P